No problem mate.
Also ye Polar had a long history of bolstering (Trust me it was even worse during KE, read his weird Biography thing if you really want to get ill) his clans numbers up with either random people or even downright fabricating them from thin air, you can see a lot of examples in earlier Axis infobooks where some alleged members weren't even valid PSN IDs.
I call his MO Political Conscription since he gave so many important roles to people with little to almost no experience or skill in them, which is in retrospect does explain a lot of Axis's shortcomings. Hell if they letted me in you know they were desperate for members and were more then willing to scrap the bottom of the proverbial barrel, and that thing is deep.
And yeah I do see your point, all information is a variable in forming the cohesive story behind a Clan, It's motives, and the internal functions. NKP shows a lot of the Axis's inherant corruption in it's Administration and how little they cared about getting the most competent members postions they would be best suited for.
Also Axis had like no vetting what so ever. Seriously we allowed ANYBODY to join even if they did pose much more harm to the alliance then any actual good, they even failed at their own Elitism.
Don't feel bad man, we were all cringy at some point. Best a person can do is learn from it and use it as incentive to better yourself.